I only have two regrets, and everything else ive ever done conscerning you I do not regret. My first is not allowing myself to show my feelings for you in when I had the chance. The second is allowing myself to attack your last boyfriend, when he clearly cared for you. It was not his choice to become the way he had. He was cornered by depression from all angles, his family, perhaps his friends, and by you. You let your search for power destroy the relationship you could have had with him. Allowing him to think you did not care for him. I wont pretend to know what happened, but Im sure he wasnt given enough priority by you, and that you werent willing to give him enough priority. I would have stuck by you no matter what happened, but that is because I am different, not better. I can respect you for everything you do, but can he really be blaimed for this? I doubt it... This doesnt make you a bad person, it just means that your priorities are mixed up. Your willing to cast aside those who love you to seek control. Is love that trivial to you? I know it cannot be. Their love should be the most important thing in your life. And now, your at the advent of perhaps another relationship, and I would suffer the same fate no doubt? Cast aside by you, in pursuit of a more important goal in life? I felt like I had a chance to show you a better world when you broke up with him, but in fact i should have been feeling like a part of me had died with him shouldnt I? Just one more reason to allow yourself to lose more and more of what I find precious about you... I am no different than him am I? When the dust settles am I just another one on the floor? Not special to you at all perhaps? I feel like im the worthless other in this situation, taking a back seat to all things, in life, an obstacle in your path, thats all Ive been for you so far really. Id love to keep taking you places and talking to you about the hopes and dreams this world has given me and how you have inspired me in so many ways and share so many things with you, but all I would be really doing is blocking you from achieving your "ultimate goal" of reaching power and prestige. I cant let go though, because I feel that if I fight further that things can be different. The worst part is that it doesnt need to be like this... All it makes me want to do is cry, like im dying slowly with you. Is this why you wont consider being in a relationship with me? Because I would just be cast aside as well? If thats the case then let me be with you and then cast me aside. Like the praying mantice devourse its mates head I will take my chances to show you a that some things matter more in this world than the power that society makes us feel is necessary to live good lives.