TODAY MONDAY JUNE 9th 2014
Could swear that the community at large is drugging me in my coffee or bagels, muffins and diner food.
Other possible explanations: give or take 8 cups of coffee a day, a pack and a half of cigarettes, lack of sleep, the medication I take with the bagels and muffins...coffee. The medication I take at other times.
I am completely illicit drug free, although this is not really a choice, more a consequence of my situation.
I have, in the past taken drugs and so think that I recognize the effects... long time ago.
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TODAY TUESDAY JUNE 10 2014
Wasting the day tinkering with audio programs that I don't understand and are not perfect.
JOB>
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TODAY WEDNESDAY JUNE 11 2014
repeat of yesterday although I did laundry and ate something.
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TODAY THURSDAY JUNE 12 2014
I got some mail in my junk folder a couple of days ago, the top line reads, "Its our way of saying thanks" In my shock addled state I wonder if that means something.
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TODAY SUNDAY JUNE 15 2014
Feeling bad. getting stuff done ---> feeling bad.
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TODAY TUESDAY JUNE 17 2014
What a shitty world I live in, my world that is, not the world at large.
but then, one could look at my world the same way, shitty yes, entirely shitty no.
my appraisal is that it is shitty though.
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TODAY SATURDAY JUNE 21 2014
not much,
the previous sounds pessimistic although I really am not.
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SAME DAY: there is nothing that makes this irrelevant, makes this OK, there is nothing that makes anything worth it. I you want to live, and I suppose that is a relevant question, given personal liberty and freedom, then you must find another reason.
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TODAY TUESDAY JUNE 24 2014
Shit, lost soul.
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TODAY THURSDAY JUNE 26 2014
wasting time. but when I am not its still a waste of time.
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TODAY SATURDAY JUNE 28 2014
went into new york city last night, falling asleep on way home.
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TODAY SUNDAY JUNE 29 2014
went into city last night was not falling asleep on way home.
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